Always keep the faith


Sunday, November 22, 2009 동방신기믿어요 Never had i felt this way before...to a boyband or to a idol. I have no idea why this time I am so involved. Way more involved when i was crazing over 183club&fahrenheit. DBSK taught me alot of things. I just watched MAMA on youtube and saw that Jaejoong was really really sad. "Perhaps, my two friends, if they are watching, I just want to let them know that i love them." That wasn't my last straw. Seeing what the fans accounted when they saw the trio at the back stage was the last straw. They have nobody with them, not even bodyguards. They have no transportation, they left in a van. Jaejoong was crying badly. And at this moment, this time, SM, still could pop out with "They have no right to represent DBSK." Where's the bloody justice in this world? When I was reading the news, all I could thought of was 'what could make SM just let go of them?' Maybe they are the one who sued SM first, but all they asked was just a change of contract, why can't you just do it?? It wasn't anything serious. Yet, things just became more complicated. I really pity Yunho & Changmin's inability to speak out. They could be suffering too but they couldnt and they have to play the sucking up role. With that type of contract, no one would possibly be happy. Sigh. I thought celebrity's life is somehow glamourous even though they have to sacrifice their privacy. But now, it seems that privacy is so insignificant compared to the war DBSK (yes it's dbsk) is fighting against SM. Anyway, congrats to DBSK for getting the 'Best Representative for Asia' award(: ASIA'S PROUD!!!!! Suddenly, seeing this, i thought of the 'We have no rights, we have no say but we longed to be free one day.' LOL. That was random, but the quote reminds me of the situation DBSK is in now. Always always keep the faith, okay? 5 unite as 1 = 동방신기 For some reason, i really like Yunho wearing like this. haha. That's what i always imagine my boyfriend would wear. LOOOOL. Speaking of this.... I get this awkwardness whenever we saw each other, alone. And most of the time, we won't talk. But if it's on msn or sms, it seems that we are more relaxed. Maybe i am thinking too much again, but.... I really don't understand how i feel towards this. Whenever I thought i could forget, but somehow the feelings would return. To tell the truth, jealousy told me the return of it. :( I think i am a jealous freak lah! think of yunho more! think of yunho more! Then i would forget the pain I have feel from the one sided love! Hahahahas. my devil's ride; 1:33 AM Saturday, November 21, 2009 Firstly, it was sm. Then, people starting to blame homin for abandoning jaechunsu. Now, they are blaming jaechunsu for performing without homin. Lol!!!! Stupid right? WTF ?!?!?! As for yunho, I will believe him no matter what. For jaejoong, I will never think of him in a negative way. For junsu, he is too angelic to be a money grabber. For yoochun, I misunderstood him once and now I know he is a nice guy. For changmin, i believe he will only do what he thinks is right. Yes, this is how much faith I have in them. This is how much trust cassiopeia should have in them. Even if they have internal conflicts among themselves, who cares? They still try to make everything look as if perfect! We love them as dbsk and if dbsk tells us they are fine why should we care? As individual, we love them as we are and all the more we shouldn't care! I dunno why I have to keep doing this to express my faith in them since I can keep it in my heart too! But I just couldn't believe why as a fan, we have to keep blaming the one we love. We love them and we should not hurt them! Okay, that's all I hve to say.. Byeeeeee!!! my devil's ride; 8:39 PM The countdown moment is finally here! 9 more days... <5 more hours... 3 more papers 2 more subjects seems so near, yet so far. Just like yesterday? Hahahahahahhaha my devil's ride; 9:24 AM Thursday, November 19, 2009 4 more papers to go I don't see anything with Jaechunsu going to MAMA(if they are really going). So what if SM is boycotting and none of their artise are going, even it includes Yunho and Changmin? It's their fault that they kept trying make JCS as the bad guys and act as if they don't want to have anything to do with them! Since all connections are lost, then why should the trio not go? I mean firstly, it can be shown as a retaliation against the bully. Secondly, that maybe what Homin want but cannot do it due to their present stand? I am still pretty sure that changmin and yunho didnt sign that statement on their own accord seeing the fact that shanghai concert's confirmation was also nothing. What's SM gna do next with so many lawsuits going on? LOL. I expect more scandals and gossips going on. That's what they are best at, right? Anyway, physics paper was...expected. I managed to finish all questions by doing it anyhow. Hahahhaa. Alright, gotta mug for econs! ECOOOOONS is love! Iloveeconomics:) my devil's ride; 6:49 PM Wednesday, November 18, 2009 Last five papers... Woah! That was incredible! Especially when most of us were still slacking and laxing away thinking a level still have a long way to go! Lol hahaha it was an easy fight though...to beat me flatly! Anyway, i found a singer! Sheryl is my new singer!! Hahahaha my devil's ride; 9:28 AM Saturday, November 14, 2009 有些話慾言又止……因爲就算說了，也不會有人懂。但是，今天真的好想說，哪怕真的沒人懂，自己了解就好了。選擇錯誤是我判斷不好好強性格是我脾氣不好半途而廢是我毅力不定我承認這是我的錯。對于這個選擇後悔二字經常脫口而出卻其實只是口是心非就算能夠重來一次我仍然選擇它只不過這次我會更加珍惜這個[選擇] 既然我是個輸不起的人我就不會讓自己再輸多一次信心喪失言出必行這是我的承諾但大局已定人生只有一次過了就是過了如何重來？要是性格溫順一點好勝心再少一點或許我不會放棄或許我會向別人指教或許…… 或許我就會放棄我的選擇半途而廢言不由衷事到如今百口莫辯從小我就是個事事不如人的孩子讀書不如人健康不如人體育不如人個其它的小孩在一起我就是格格不入對於您的埋怨對於你的嫌棄我總是一笑置之因爲我知道得不到的滋味很痛苦難題當前只要您的一聲安慰我就無畏您的聲音有如定心丸一般好不容易有點兒成績您嚴肅的臉終于露出了微笑我以此為傲我更加努力我想成爲您的驕傲您知道嗎？我真的很怕聽到您說我的不好我真的很怕您看不起我偏偏現在的我還是變成了讓您看不起的孩子您說每個親戚的孩子都能上大學爲什麽我就是不能？您說他們很乖都不吵買東西爲什麽我那麽笨還要吵東吵西？您說您那麽辛苦工作讓我讀書爲什麽我就是那麽不爭氣？我說：對不起。千言萬語盡在不言中每當你和我說這番話時我的心很痛。我很自責。爲什麽我會那麽笨？那麽懶？那麽不如人？可是您能不能想想站在我的立場想想那也是我的夢想啊！是我朝思暮想的夢！我的心痛您知道嗎？一個人要放棄是一件很不容易的事除非打擊頗重要不然放棄一個自己喜歡的東西真的好難！忍痛割愛正是如此看到您那麽失望我並不開心但我能說什麽做什麽？您的一句話否定了我。說真的有時候我覺得離開會不會是個好選擇？看不到我您會開心點不？ my devil's ride; 4:59 PM Friday, November 13, 2009 Lyrics changing time! I guess,SM's actions are getting more and more ridiculous! And this song is for Yunho! Jiayou ah~~~! It's 范逸臣's I Believe And now, after a little changing, it becomes my 'I believe'. I have included some simple korean words inside too! hahaha I believe 你的那言不由衷閉上眼否則看了更難過 I believe 自由全部被剝奪掩飾傷痛這是你在保護我盡在不言中默默地keep the faith 就算不能守住此諾言請不要很難過 믿어요是我們之間一個相信沒有人能夠把它從我的心給帶走 어떻게能讓你知道你就是나의사랑아 沒辦法抽離去你脆弱時候卻不能在你身邊留 I Believe 當你一個人時候偶爾會指責自己沒有用 I Believe 微笑說著괜찮아 只是一種眼淚滑落的方式盡在不言中默默地keep the faith 就算不能守住此諾言請不要很難過 믿어요是我們之間一個相信沒有人能夠把它從我的心給帶走 어떻게能讓你知道你就是나의사랑아 沒辦法抽離去一切結束后記得找回燦爛笑容那未曾說出的사랑해요 就讓我借歌傳送情大聲地唱出來我愛你是一見鍾情的效應你永遠那麽感動我 믿어요是我們之間一個相信沒有人能夠把它從我的心給帶走 어떻게能讓你知道你就是나의사랑아 沒辦法抽離去或許不久后童話會有美麗邂逅故事里主人翁你我 :) DBSK fights all the waaaaay! my devil's ride; 6:10 PM Thursday, November 12, 2009 3 papers down I love the seating position today. at least it sent me smiling throughout the paper. my devil's ride; 12:48 PM	profile; Nicole Goh, 18 years old. I love Jung Yunho! 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